08 Nov 2009, Posted by jay rusovich in Jay Rusovich, 1 Comments

My Cell Phone Ate My Life.

Last night I shot my iphone with a Beretta 9mm pistol, sending its obliterated components into the bark of an oak tree across the street.

Just kidding.

I actually just turned it off, which kind of had the same effect.

I decided to shut out the rest of the world, to let life take its course without my intrusion into it. It’s amazing how deeply imbedded these devices have become.

Soon they’ll show up in our DNA.

“Yea, he’s with Verizon…”

Anyway, I’m finally at peace.

Whatever happens outside stays there. My gates are locked. The alarm is engaged. The world is gone.

That world.

This one belongs solely to me.

All of the emotional ties are temporarily disengaged. The drawbridge is jammed securely against the burnt umber stucco and steel that separate me from emotional Armageddon.

I see it as a kind of détente; a standoff that can last for days or longer, if necessary.

When you can’t feel anything you no longer care.

Just ask any homicidal sociopath.

Other people just practice yoga, including – I would assume – homicidal sociopaths.

Nonetheless, to simply not care [disconnect] is surprisingly peaceful. It’s how I imagine death; an eternal rest for frayed nerves otherwise on constant edge, absorbing and struggling to decipher the solid stream of code that beats the living into submission.

Cellular phones tie us to every aspect of life, overloading our senses and connecting us to everything and everyone. They are today’s heroin: the texting, chatting, signaling, mingling in and out of life, both public and private; cluttering it with broken signals and splintered thoughts, because they’re always splintered in two dimensions.

I keep preaching this like a psychotic on a street corner with a sign, but people pay less and less attention as two-dimensions absorbs three.

But I don’t have to worry about any of this because my phone is off and I am free.

I think I’ll order Chinese and spend the day living back in the 50’s, a time before all of this took control of the earth and we along with it.